Swam across bleak and murky seas,
only to find oneself trapped in the debris
Held one’s breath through the foggy scenes,
from strange creatures lurking in the fields
Screamed and howled from years of sorrow,
laid in shadows that was once borrowed
Where ill-minded people become thoughts,
and thoughts become bona fide figures and frauds
Thieves of sunshine and merry minds,
this- is where one’s body lies
An inescapable place of an unfortunate fate,
finding toxic voices that one creates
From the scarps of the past and undesired faces;
you’ll find me there pacing through my own phases.
Halo! Thought I’d share some of my favourite songs that I never get tired of – from the moment I discovered it until now. Hence, considering them timeless in my book. There are many others but I’ve formatted my laptop so all the downloaded songs I’ve gathered over the years have dissipated.
Hope you’re having better days x
Heya! I came to a realization that my blogposts – prior to the last two – have always lacked in personal touch. Recently, I’ve been reading and glossing over my old posts – and they honestly seem too formulaic and humdrum. Although this blog was intended to act as a travel journal for myself – surviving and making sense of life is a form of travel too…as corny as that sounds but I consider it to be true (that came out of nowhere huh?). Therefore, I am allowing myself to be relatively more personal in this blog as I believe that it enables to show one’s own values and particularity. We are all individuals with our own set of particularities after all – so why not embrace it? Though this approach may be a form of excuse where I am giving the opportunity to blabber on and on *trails off*. SO – although this blog might only receive a pint-sized audience, I am truthfully D E S P E R A T E to have a form of “everyday creativity” in my normal sometimes-fun (not really) everyday life. As Paul Willis would argue; symbolic creativity can be found in our everyday lives especially among the youths. Look at me trying to make use of what I learned in uni for my blog, who woulda funk it?
Anyways, as a first step to get up-close and personal; I thought I’d share some random things about myself in this post. *I already feel a little high-strung typing that sentence* Thing is right, I wouldn’t consider myself as a person who overshares a lot with someone, not with my family and general friends. There are few people/friends scattered here and there who I trust whole-heartedly; like 3-5? haha. Well anyways, enough blabber about blabbering now..let’s get into the other thing I was going to blabber on instead. Below is a list I found on the internet, which I am using as a guide (because I loveee lists). As Youtubers like call it “GET TO KNOW ME TAG” hehe why do I find that amusing. Oh man, I’m so easily distracted.
- Zodiac Sign: Scorpio
- 5 random Fears:
- Weighing Scales
- Angry people
- My parents lol
- 5 random things I love:
- Tracing stars
- Sushi dates with my s/o
- Purple cabbages
- Zayd’s funky eyebrows (Zayd is my nephew)
- Last song I listened to: Khalid – 8Teen / thanksies to bilski (◕∀◕✿)
- My favourite series(/s):
- Doctor Who
- Pushing Daisies
- My favourite book (/s):
- *Note: I am very picky and I do not consider myself as a bookwork*
- Honorable mentions:
- The Alchemist (Paulo Coelho)
- The Secret Garden (F.H Burnett)
- The Essential Rumi (Translated by Coleman Barks)
- Sputnik Sweetheart (Murakami)
- My current pets: An 11-year old grandpa/cat named Milo and two kittens; Cha Yen and Chad.
- My Favourite Youtubers:
- H3H3 Productions
- Sid & Dina
- Karima Mckimmie
- My 5 Favorite Makeup products:
- Brows -> Essence Clear Brow Gel
- Concealer -> Tarte Shape Tape
- Blush -> Nyx Abu Dhabi lip creme & Chanel 67
- Lips -> Mac Spirit
- Where I work: Derp – Unemployed a.k.a Sloth Inc.
- Something I’m looking forward to: Ramadhan
- One trait I would like to have: Being better at numbers & science.
- Where I want to travel next: THIS IS ENDLESS MATE. *ding ding: this might be a next blog post* One of the places I’d really LOVE to travel to is Japan; specifically Tashirojima, Mount Yoshino and Okunishima.
- Some of my life goals:
- To have my own Pet Clinic
- To travel perpetually with my future husband
- To have friends from all over the world
- To have my own library
- To build my own observatory
- An embarrassing moment: One of the most vivid memories I still remember till this day; tripping on stairs in front of a large crowd while my headscarf was about to fly off my head. *Note: wearing the headscarf that time was still something new so I was struggling to maintain/fix it.
- The last time I cried and why: Received a rejection from an institution where I applied to continue my studies.
- Something I fantasize about: the kind of life I would have if I was a cat.
- People I aspire to: *honorable mentions* Rumi, Lauren Singer, Kristen Lepore, Michelle Obama (ehe), Van Gogh, Doctor Who (I know he’s fictional) and Tim Burton.
DONE. I know, it’s no fun without pictures right? Next post will have some snaps, promise! I’ll leave you to some stop motion videos I fell in love with. Thanks for reading!!
Travel blogpost yay!!
A few months ago, I had the privileged to (finally) visit Indonesia. Specifically Lombok. I stayed for a week at Gili Trawangan (one of the three islands in Lombok) at Happy Cocoon. It was my first experience to get to indulge in nature on a daily basis during a trip. It was so nice to not worry about what to wear or how smelly my clothes would smell from being drenched in the rain (ha ha). Speaking of, it was rainy season when I visited, so I experienced a lot of rocky rides on the sea (as I had to ride on a boat to get to the island from the town, vice-versa) and constantly tripping on puddles and catching a mild cold by night (I have a weak immune system). That’s alright though, there were so many other things that I enjoyed about Gili that a little/lotta rain didn’t even matter. In fact, it was part of the fun too sometimes.
Therefore, I present you a list of things I love about Gili, and parts of Lombok. [FYI: This is the first ever I am making a list on this blog. I’ve just finished my semester in Uni and I’ve just found out I like writing lists *shock horror*]
- Mountains. Upon arrival, I was invited with a splash of rain that made Lombok looked gloomy and initially depressing. Though I do not hate rain, I do love some sunshine to perk things up especially after a flight – I’m not the best at flights either, unsurprisingly. However, it didn’t seem so depressing at all when I noticed how peaceful the place was when the van I rode in took us pass the city and introduced us to folds of mountains in the horizon. I. LOVE. MOUNTAINOUS VIEWS. Our driver took us to a run-down house that sat at the edge of a hill. We met with a view of the mountains meeting the sea. There’s just something so majestic and scenic about rows of mountains sitting on the horizon..calling out to me. GAH. Only Murakami would best explain how a mountain would create a strong sense of admiration in me. Sadly, I am no Murakami. Anyways, the view of the mountains in pictures I took of course do not justify its beauty. You can’t expect to know how good a song is just by looking at a sheet music right? Unless you have amazing talent then I applaud you. Okay, going back on track- Mountains. Yes, mountains. The view of the mountains placed beautifully across Lombok looked oh-so-magnifique especially from Gili trawangan. My favourite way to admire the mountains was from the boat ride to Gili. Every time I rode the boat to go to Gili, I fixated my eyes on how the mountains unfold from a near view to afar. Little things like that give me joy. Allah’s creations are truly lovely.
- Blue water. Need I say more? Who doesn’t love a sea of blue water? Quite literally. I got to snorkel twice in the shallow waters of Gili. Because the rain always came unpredictably, we couldn’t risk going to deeper water to snorkel. (Plus: In reality, half of us were untrained in water anyways ahahHahHAhH) The objective of the first snorkel was to look for the famous giant turtles that swim near the shore. Of course, rain had to come to the parade just when we were prepping ourselves in the water in the first 15 minutes. Because of the rain, the giant turtles escaped to deeper water so we didn’t get to swim with them 😦 Though we met some tiny ones instead so I wasn’t entirely dissappointed. The second snorkel took place a couple days after, at Pandawa resort. The resorts in Gili (such as Pandawa) are famous for the swings that suspend above water. I believe we snorkeled approximately for two hours. Yup there was some skin burn. “Jangantah pakai sunblock” I said to myself, dubious of the lack of capabilities and tolerance my skin can endure. Burn, it certainly did. The water was shallow and the tide was calm. I swam with cutesy little fishes and observed their corals. Understandably, the fishes swam for their lives. I would too if a giant alien was hovering around lol. Though after a couple of minutes trying my best to be still; some came out of hiding and swam around my hands. Then others in hiding would come out too, to continue their lives in their coral village and carry on with their fishy duties *hehe*. Observing their corals and “hanging out”/”floating about” with the fishes; that was when I felt the most solitude during the whole trip. Ah, the little things.
- The Locals. Although my Bahasa wasn’t great, the important thing is I tried! LOL. So I tried to talk in Bahasa with the locals, some understood me, some just pretended to *enter crying laughing emoji*. Most of the locals were very friendly to us. I had the chance to talk to the workers at the homestay and other places where we bought souvenirs and had our massages. Though there was that unforgettable time when my sister and I encountered the heaviest rain in Gili when we were on our way to the homestay. For some reason, the unexpected heavy rain got my sister and I laughing hysterically, while stumbling into deep puddles and making pitstops under small rooftops in front of people’s houses; we must’ve looked like crazy fools. We then took shelter at one of the small convenient shops before reaching the homestay. The lady, who I assumed, owned the shop, told us to wait until the rain would calm down. Though we were afraid that the road to the homestay would get flooded, we told her that we wanted to go as soon as possible. After several times of insisting us to stay and us insisting her that we want to go (lol), she told one of her workers in the shop to accompany us to the homestay. The rain suddenly calmed a bit, we then told her that we’d be fine, hence we declined and thanked her. As we make our way to the homestay, several half-naked kids were dancing and enjoying themselves in the rain. We screamed HAI and they screamed back (note: screaming due to loud and heavy rain). They asked us where we wanted to go (we must’ve looked lost), and they led us the way. We thanked them by taking pictures with them and waved goodbye to let them continue playing in the rain. Such sweet kids.
- Gili Horses. There’s not much to say on this except that I love horses. There were many horses with carriages in Gili. As there were no cars to transport people around the island, bikes and horse-drawn carriages were used instead. Horses pictures will be down below hehe.
- Honorable mention: The Food! Those who visit Gili/Lombok has to try the food, especially seafood. Unfortunately, I didn’t get a chance to eat the lobster there, though everything else is so good & relatively affordable 🙂
THAT WAS A DESCRIPTIVE LIST AYE? Okay let’s move on to the pictures. Thank you for reading!! If you’re only here to look at the pictures, that’s okay too. Do comment below if you like this blogpost, and if you like to see more of these kinds of narrative/descriptive posts of my travels. The camera I used was FujiFilm x100T. Enjoy! 🙂
You’ve come to the end of the post! If you can’t tell, there are no pictures at night. It rained quite a lot especially at night, so I didn’t want to damage the camera.
Thanks for dropping by 🙂
Hola! I hope whoever’s reading is doing well and that you’ve had a good day.
Wow this blog has been dormant for so long. Though I told myself to put in more dedication to posting so come visit once in a while! 🙂
I’ve just finished my final exams for my degree in uni and the weights on my shoulder have never felt lighter. I know that soon enough I might start fretting over job applications *roll eyes* and thinking of agendas for future plans (super mature) so I’m enjoying this freedom as it lasts. Trust me when I say I am no stranger to self-pressure, so for the mean time when my anxieties of getting a job have not kicked in (relatively speaking), I’m going to enjoy my cookie monster from Pan n Wok, listen to some good music, cuddle with my smelly cat Milo and re-read some of my old favourite and dusty books. Yes, sounds like a plan. Maybe I should paint some too. And practice my sewing skills. Okay, now I’m starting to sound like an old woman planning her days in the retirement home. Yikes..where did all my youth go.
More exciting news: I am officially an auntie to a beautiful baby boy. He was born a few days before I sat for my first exam paper. My first time meeting him involved mostly me poking his cheeks, feeling amazed at how soft his skin feels. AND HE SMELLS INCREDIBLE. He is always sleeping, and I’ve been told that’s normal. I know nothing of what babies do and what I should say to it..him..I’m still getting used to referencing him as a person too. A very tiny person. How can something so human be so tiny? *squeaks in excitement* I don’t know what to anticipate being an aunt; I was never that great with kids, though I’m not the worse at it either. I have yet to learn the responsibilities of being an aunt and a better sister to my brother and sister-in law. They’ll surely be great parents though, I just know it. Insya Allah.
Anyhoo, I thought I’d share some ~tunes~ with you guys. These are some of my new and old favourites, and they were the songs I particularly enjoyed during my last travel. Oh yes, and that travel blog post is coming soon too (sneak peek below). So stay tuned, get some tea and entertain yourself with some music.
Have a great weekend everyone, see you in the next post!
In the light of the first project I was involved in, under a community outreach organization, I had a feasibly good chance to capture few snaps of the endeavor. The project focused on an area in Kampung Ayer and it allowed us to roam about, relatively to the degree of the heat for most of the time; and here are some of the many scenes I have managed to savor to my keeping.
“And if you would count the graces of Allah, never could you be able to count them.” 14:34